Broken.

Feelings and emotions are extremely fragile in my opinion, and it applies to everyone. Sometimes I thought that even if I'm broken up a million-and-one times, I will be just OK if I would to mend it up and be strong once again. So I had been broken uncountable times, and I have also mended myself up countless times but its getting more and more painful now.

I know, and I know, that we're not even considered together yet( I mean literally) but I really wants to do everything a good boyfriend would do for you but sometimes I can't, and I'm truly sorry. I admit I'm a stupid, dumb, dimwitted but I'm willing. I really don't want you to be sad or anything, and even more I don't want you to be reading this.

I still love you, and I'll always be there for you still even if I'm broken a million times, I will still put myself together for you. That's all I can say, I promise you.

Life is like a puzzle.

Have you imagined that our life is a combination of many puzzles brought together to shape one picture?

At the very beginning of everything, studies, relationships, careers etc etc, we are totally clueless on is going to happen in the future. "Que' sera sera, what will be, WILL BE" Heard of that?


However when time passes by we slowly reveal the puzzle. Means like we realize how and what things are going to be soon, after going through lots of hard times, sweet times and etc etc.


And also these puzzles are precious bits of memories you get from just being around. Memories of people you love, things that you like and also the pain you have gone through. Everyone have their own puzzles in their life but of course it differs from one another, this is what makes each individual so unique and special.

This is a short post only but I hope you understand what I'm trying to say here, and do appreciate everything you get and not take things for granted as if it is gone, it will be very hurtful. And for those sweet memories, we keep in our heart, to be remembered for years to come. and for those hardships, take it as an experience and learn from them.

PS: I'm currently appreciating what I have now and despite what the outcomes will be.
PSS: Let's make our own puzzle together k? Slowly time will finish our puzzle, if we're together.
PSSS: For those who are staying at Sg.Long, please be careful and more alert of your surroundings as the crime rates here are acceptably high in a way.

Thank You

Thank you for the promise we made yesterday.

Even if everyone left everyone, I'll never leave you
I will always kepoh you.

I might be showing too much at times,
but I just want you to know,
that you're loved.

Choices choices and more choices

Everyday we ourselves make choices we're not aware of. Your friend might just ask you where to eat? A or B and you made a choice from there. It's easy to choose choices like this as it will not affect us much but what if your asked to make choice between life and death? or the choice for your own happiness? Just give it a thought or two for now, k?

Let's see an example of what choices we normally make in a day in UTAR.

You wake up in the morning, you will think that should you go to class or not( some UTAR students)...

Then you choose what to wear out of hundreds of combination of clothings you have in your wardrobe...

Then when you reach at the lobby, you decide whether to use the lift or not...

During lunch, you decide where to eat..

yadayadayada during dinner, you choose again...

So we plenty of choices a day but what if you are to choose between 2 person to love?

So? which will you choose?

PS: don't hurry yourself in deciding and don't restrain yourself from reality too, just let it be as it be and time will just clear off the clouds that's been blocking your view always.

If you cannot be with the one you love, then love the one you are with

I know...

Lots of things have been going on lately, the answer of yes and no to questions must be running around you head for what's going to happen to us. I know you're still waiting, and I know its hard for you to make a choice and of course it will be worst when this choice is made, it will surely be hurtful to either one of us. And most of you hurtful to you. Just take your time and let's enjoy our moment together.





PS: Life sucks at times, but with you around, its total joy and happiness.
PSS: Try to share your thoughts to me at times, so I could listen and understand what you're thinking too, k?

To the special person in my life

Haven't been updating recently, coz I had devoted my time to someone special. For those those who knew, for those who guessed it, whatever-la-you-all-think.

To my special one,

I love you, and I can be immature at times, forgive me for not being so mature =P.
I love you, I can be annoying at times, but I will try to give you your own space from now on.
I love you, I will go slow for us to truly understand one another.
I love you, and I will give you laughter and joy for the time we spend together.
I love you, and I will be forever loving you-lor, what else-lar rite? =P.

-Darrius

and a song to my special one also-lar, Chris Brown - With You

Chris Brown - With You

and another song for you,

Colbie Caillat - Realize

I will hold on to you

Sometimes, there are things that she couldn't let go off so easily, he know and he understand that but its hurtful to know so too. he think it's OK doh, although it's hurtful but at least he knew that's what been bothering her.
It's immature of him to kinda keep forcing her, and he's truly sorry. Cause at that moment, within his heart, he was told not to let go of her ever. But now, he understand and he do believe time can mend everything. There's so much more he wants to say here but he'll just tell it to her when the time comes.
And also, don't feel bother to disturb me anytime, anywhere and anyhow. Cause being with you for even a second or a moment is just too good to be true.
And thanks for not telling me directly...if not I think I will break...

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I love you...but why?

I loved you when we first met.
I loved the time when we talked together.
I loved the way you smile.

I never understood why i became this way.
I never will tried to avoid you.
I never wanted to leave your side.

I will be here when you need me.
I will listen to you.
I will make you smile

You made me the happiest person in the world.
You gave me hope when needed.
you would make me laugh even at tough times.
I love you...but why?
Cause I just LOVE you for who you are, and you only.

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I can always make you smile =)

When your down, I will be there for you, to cheer you up.
So, never start frowning because you never know who's falling in love with
your smile :)

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Additionally

I WAN STARBUCKS!!!

now now, who said that pigs are not cute jek?

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Self-Confidence

This will be a very very very very and I do mean very boring post if you read it out of the blues.
Self-confidence, a word we often see and heard from anywhere and everyone. However so, do you really know what it really means? and do you have the sufficient confidence needed in your life?

Let me share something I gained from my organization behavior tutorial class wtf!? It's called self-fulling prophecy, and to put it simple we can call it self-confidence lar~. Saying that if we are confidence about ourself that we will achieve something, we will achieve it and if we are not confidence at all, we will just never get there.

Hmm..don't think you get it, let's use 2 example to explain things up.

Let's use a primary school kid-lah.

Example 1 (Typical Kiasu Mom)
Mother: Boy ah, you very stupid one lor, go school also no use lah! I give birth to a "char siew" better than you lah!

Example 2 (Understanding Mom)
Mother: You are smart one! very very super duper smart lah! Just like Bill Gates lah!

If your in a situation where your mom always repeat sentences like this, you will just end up like that. If ones parents keep saying their child stupid, sure-lah he or she will become stupid! And if ones parents would encourage and nurture their child properly than won't it be better by the end of the day.

Let's use another example.

Girl 1 thinks she's not attractive and have low self confidence to socialize and even to smile, by all means she will look like what she perceive-lah!

However if,

Girl 2 thinks she's attractive enough and have confidence about herself, than of course she will shine better when socializing-lor.

Ok, did I knock some senses into you yet?

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Not yet huh? Lemme show you this!

Hmmm... abit over confidence I think =P

This post is dedicated to you, that keep saying yourself fat-lor, you're not fat and your just you and that's something you should be proud off. Everyone is different and by all means everyone is beautiful in one way or another, it's just the way we perceive and see things.